13th day since you left me. The feeling for you has never dropped a bit..in fact, since we started, it has only increase..I'm wondering what you are doing now and what you will be doing over the weekend..I'm not sure if you are still seeing him and leaning on his shoulders or even allowing him to hug you..I know the answer is probably yes for most but I hope it's not so frequent that you will fall for him..it's comfortable and nice to have someone who is very supportive but sometimes the most supportive one might not be the most suitable one because of hidden intentions..hmm...
And I just realised you removed a post which I tagged you in..it's the note which laogong writes to laopo..haiz..i tagged you because I just wanted to show you how alike it is to me..out of the 10 points, I probably have done 9 of them..hm..maybe tt's y it's overkill..but u did e cruel move of removing it from your wall..i've no idea why becoz i stated clearly that I shared with you becoz it's like me and told u not to be stressed about it..but oh well....
and your msges to me is still as cold..thr're times when I wonder if really that little bit of feeling for me is no longer there..but the thing is, I totally feel that ours is true love right from e beginning..we managed to solve so many conflicts and quarrels but yet tis time rd, our 4yrs+ r/s actually din survive e quarrel..I juz feel that e feelings shouldn't just die off like tt..anw, I still believe you left me becoz our misunderstanding that accumulated..and not becoz of our difference in values..but I believe you mustered the courage to leave me becoz thr's another guy thr providing the support that you need alrdy..so in a sense, lyk you said..you need someone to give you the kind of support that you want..not someone to take care of you..tt's y in a way, u need him more than u need me..becoz i was balancing b/w giving you support and taking care of u..but mayb i din balance properly tt's y it turned out the negative way..
yesterday night, you said you don't want me to keep so zhi zhuo..judging from all your replies and attitude, it seems you wan me to give up on u..but i've told u be4 tt even if the whole world gives up on you, I never will..I'm not zhi zhuo, I'm just very chi qing and it's not sth I can control..for you are the ONLY one I love..you kept on saying that you are not good, and it's not worth it for me..but to me, you're the best gal I can have..
laopo, don't so anti me le k?at least open up your heart once again to me..I know I've done you wrong and dui bu qi ni by scolding you..I really don't wanna lose you..give me a chance to find back the feelings we had for each other hao ma?
I alrdy tried my best to not pressurise u le..but it seems tt u're juz irritated by me..lyk a thorn in e flesh and juz want to get rid of me..haiz..I'm really drown in sadness every second since tt day...u said u will love me forever and no matter wat happens, you will stick with me..when I said those things, I am ready to commit myself to forever no matter wat happens..but now it seems tt ur heart has swayed and those words dun mean anything more to u...haiz..forever loving u de laogong..since i cant msg u these stuff, i can only write here and continue to hope that 1 day you will be touched and let me return to your side...
