*poof* blows the dust away this blog..been so long since I last had the feel to write something. Strangely enough, I woke up dreaming her 2 days ago. So I've decided to check out her fb to see how she has been doing since somehow I didn't hear from her despite sending her xmas card. Great to see her doing well and happy =). However, her dad does seem frail, just hope that everything is all right. Been close to two years since we broke up, and the radio just have to play "Breakeven" by The Script when I was browsing through her fb somehow reminding me of what happened then and there will always be questions that I will never ever be able to get an answer.. That life event did leave a deep scar on me but I am not complaining since this is all part and parcel of life. There are things that are just not within your control and all I can say is, you need to meet the right person at the right time before you can ultimately end up with that person for life. While I still care about her well-being, I am no longer in any capacity to even give the slightest care to her but I am glad there is another guy doing it for the past 2 years. =)
Having being single for almost 2 years, I have definitely gotten used to the freedom. In fact, as much as I want to have a partner to accompany me when I feel lonely, I have accepted it as a trade-off for the freedom I get in return till someone who is single and available appears in my life. No urgency in that as I know that with my current status, I still cannot afford to have a partner at least till I graduate and start working. Actually, after that life event, I've come to let go a lot of things that was important to me including motivation. I guess I have recently slowly re-discover some of these things and "fighting" is the word to use. But I guess someone up there must have been trying to be funny with me because my left eye has been giving me problem since October, even when I went to eye centre for checks, the doc says it's normal so I am suspecting it's my brain that has got problem and my memory has actually been failing me and my reaction slowed. I am really afraid of going for a brain MRI as it is costly and I'm totally unprepared for the worst. So I don't know when I will be dragging it till. Anyway, it's getting late and since no one will be reading this, I shall end off here. Till the next time I feel like writing again~ Happy CNY & 2014! =)
