I dun understand why are you doing this to me..I don't know if you realise it at this moment, or maybe if you realise it, you won't admit it that all these while, it might be your CCA and your seniors that have been tying you down rather than me tying you down..and becoz you don't know how to say no, you take on more stuff to the extent that I seems to be the one that tie you down when in fact all along, I gave you quite substantial freedom to do your work..and then you chose to give up on a relationship and someone who silently support you by taking care of your health so that you got the energy to carry on with what you want to do..then now, you've finally grown tired of it and want to call it quits (your CCA)..25 days after being 'released' by me..but have no intention of getting back into the r/s..

Many times, people just want to protect you because people outside the picture can usually see things more clearly and also things that are likely to happen..they have no intention of tying you down or whatsoever..it has nothing to do with being understanding or supportive..it's difficult to want someone who genuinely care and love to support behaviours that will harm you real badly..it's like my dad..when the family tells him things, he feels that we are always against him and don't understand his way of thinking..and he always choose to believe people outside..then when things happen, he only says “我哪里知道”..but the thing is we've warned him beforehand..and he refuse to listen..so i juz hope even though stubborn is part of your character, you have to try and be more receptive to what your close ones tell you..yes, every1 has their own thinking..but if you become like my dad, who just wants to be different from the rest of the world and isolate yourself just so that you could do what you want, then it's going to be very difficult for yourself and your close ones..it's not about conforming..but rather discerning between the appropriate and not..

i hope if you somehow took time to read this, you don't feel that I still don't understand you well enough..but rather I hope you understand that this world does not allow anyone to just do what they want to do, sometimes, you've to learn to accept this fact and be mindful that whatever you do, the ones that will never leave you are the ones closest to you and they are also the ones who will worry and xin tong when you engage in self-destructive behaviour..love you..