Haiz..laopo!!!!! why are you so cruel to me??? why do you want to say not really when I asked if you did give patching back a second thought..haiz..it's ok to reverse decisions at times de.........why?!! You want to move on with life..i want to also..but why can't you let me move on with you???haiz..you're the only love of my life..but yet you keep on hurting me without feeling anything..haiz..all these while, my life revolved around you..I supported you silently when you needed more time for your CCA..but it was all gone when i exploded before your dad did and even after you said you realise my ku xin, you have no intentions of getting back at all..haizz...why like that..why can't you juz give us both a chance???even if it is not now, at least tell me like perhaps after you grad you will consider it??
why do you just want to make the decision of moving on and possibly numbing something that existed for 4 years+? You should know how much you mean to me, and if I had left you just because I get very busy and my feelings for you dwindled, you will feel my pain too but that will never happen becoz I do not want you to feel this kind of pain at all..I really want to give you space and am trying my best to not talk about these issues when msging you but sometimes your msges to me don't even seem like you treat me as a friend..haiz..
I know you are not ready for any r/s now, but at least just slowly give us a chance to warm up to each other again??I am not doing this because of zw, not because of the length of our r/s..but because you're someone whom I truly truly love..do you know how painful it is to lose someone you truly love??haiz..dearest laopo, pls don't like that can?? I may not seem like a man whining here, but these are my true feelings..feelings which I want tell you but cannot..forever is a word which I've used on you which I keep my word to, but it's a word which you said at that time yes you want, now no longer feel like..haiz..have you ever wondered why did we become like that? What is the causing factor? I still believe it's SAVE that numbed your feelings for me..but I don't blame them, I only blame myself for not being able to provide enough to let you feel loved by me..haiz..laopo, I love you..I seriously doubt I can get over you, and i really don't know if I ever will have the courage to start a new relationship with another girl..even if I do, I am not sure if I will put in my true feelings as well..haiz..
I just want you to be my laopo...I love you...wr laopo
