I'm not justifying whether I am right anot, but I really want you to be healthy so that we can be together for a long time (if we ever get back tgt)..hm..anw, I dunno what are you going to think about, SAVE?us?your family?zw?hm..but I just hope whatever outcome that you've thought through, it'll be a positive one..and I'm really praying for it..I'm sure your dad also kan bu xia qu how you have not been sleeping and your mum is also very worried, but it's just that I exploded much earlier than them so I got the "you're fired!" first..and I do hope you realise that our so called problem started only after you started taking on more stuff and listening to your seniors more..not saying they broke our r/s, but rather they in a way ask you do stuff and thus even though they ask you to spend more time with me, you do not have it because you need to complete the stuff they ask you to do..hm..

Anw, when you said zw will respect your wish of staying single for now, I wasn't surprised..like I said, a guy who wants to woo a gal will definitely do anything or say anything that will please the gal..whereas the person who truly loves and care for the person will attempt to protect her by either eliminating the danger or warning her about things..I did the latter but my warning was seen as been not understanding of what you are doing so ya..I don't want to parent/control you, and I kept telling you I feel like your dad sometimes because it's the little basic things that you didn't do that will accumulate and harm your body in the future that I've to take care of because you do not care much about your own body..so laopo, I hope you can see my ku xin..I don't want to lose you..if we get back tgt, I will try and quan you but in a less forceful way ok??probably you also have to try and be more receptive to things people say ba..hm..laopo must be all right k!! Always loving you de laogong..I do not feel xinku at all, and you are not undeserving too so long as you love me as much =x