Anyway, I'm glad you said you realise the things I've told you about..and you said that's why you don't feel I'm suitable for you becoz you are someone who have to hit the wall before knowing that it's pain..hm..but I don't want you to keep hitting walls..it's going to be pain..anw, most of the time I only warn you that there's a wall but have never stop you from going to the wall..

Oh and I guess you were probably too tired to think straight yesterday and you said some hurtful stuff like "you want hold (my hand) then hold, don't want then don't hold" hm..to me it juz feels like is I yi xiang qing yuan..anw, the way you got irritated because he was there at the airport mrt waiting to wave hi..I can understand but it does make me feel as though I am the third party at times because you sort of maintain a friendlier attitude towards him but treat me real coldly at times..I know you treat him as a friend, but I think you should perhaps tell him to stop all his advances if you really don't have that kind of feelings for him..but then again, I know it's nice to have people chasing you..

Anw, I peeped at your phone and when I saw that you told him something like "is he want hold my hand"..I'm could infer that you probably tell him that you don't want to hold my hand but I want to hold yours..I dunno man..but I seriously find that telling him all these things about us is just hurting to me and would probably lead him on to think that you don't love me anymore..and when you tell me that he still hugs you, I was really angry because he is just using the name of good friend to get close to you..seriously..but probably because you don't want to lose such a friend, you do not know how to say no..hm..i dunno man..i'm seriously ok if he is genuinely a good friend..but not with ulterior motives..