Hm..today's the 30th day you left me le..although we are still sms-ing, I could sense that sometimes you just dun feel like replying..or maybe you are just too tired to think of what to reply..I really don't know..but ya,I am trying my best not to think too much..maybe you still can't get used to replying me in those joking way..but then again, I am really afraid that once you start to do that to me, you've already friendzoned me..which means it's almost impossible for us to be back together..
I seriously hope that someday you will realise that you do have this kind of freedom all these while, just that I exploded at the wrong time before your dad does..so to say our breakup as form of release, I was kinda hurt becoz I dun think I've ever tried to tie you down before..I merely wanted you to take a step back and think logically about your effort and returns and focus..more like your seniors are the ones tying you down to the CCA making you commit more and more until you do not want anything else (like studies/me etc), until you finally give up on trying to make them satisfied..haiz..laopo, I know you are tired..I know SAVE has a taken a toll on you and I shouldn't be reprimanding you at a time when you needed support the most..I was wrong..I just hope that you will come back to me soon..I really want to hear you calling me laogong again and want to have you in my arms again..I love you...hopefully we can resolve our issues soon after you grad..
Anw, so far all my friends who have heard about it feels that it's damn wasted because the underlying issue is communication..which is 1 of the factors that I placed the highest priority in..so ya, i think if we could work that out, it shouldn't be too difficult to resume the relationship..anw, wanting to be different and daring to be different is just a fine line between being special and just plain wu liaoness..I am not judging anyone (definitely not referring to you of coz)..but hope you can bear that in mind =)
