Anyway, when I saw that my contact name on your phone today has changed from our trademark to winston..I was really really heartbroken to see that..becoz I always thought our trademark will always be there no matter what..so it's not tt I was fighting with you over the name, but rather coz it dawned on me that you might have already moved on and doesn't want me to hold your hand anymore..hm..but I still very much want to!!=x

and when I ate the cake which you baked, I really felt very warm and nice and my appetite immediately improved..but during dinner, I had difficulties again..So i really don't know what's wrong with me..even like now, my stomach is growling but I do not feel like eating much..hmm..

Anyway, I felt very nice this morning when i put on the cufflinks that you bought for me..it really gave me a confident booster for my presentation..and once I reach home, I immediately use my spectacle cloth to wipe it clean and shining before putting back into the box!!=))

hm..but just now when I confirmed my gut feel that he send you home just now, I was once again filled with jealousy..I wanted to send you home but I knew it still wasn't the right time because you still feel pressurised when with me..so hm..

laopo, I just wan let you know that I've noe my mistake le..I really hope you will give me a chance to prove myself to you again..even if it's not immediately that you will return to me, at least slowly open yourself up to me again so that I can take care of you and support you..I am skinny and my shoulder may not be very comfortable to lie on but my heart has no one else but you..i so so wish to hear you call me "laogong!" again...

anyway, I'm not badmouthing the guy here..but a few of my friends did say he is the kind who sometimes may be a little too proud of himself even though he is a nice guy..so I guess he probably felt a sense of achievement when you told him we've broken up le..so i really hope you don't fall for his sweet words k..always loving you de laogong!