today's supposedly our 4yrs and 10mths..only 2mths more to the magical 5years..hm..juz now when i said my angels are watching over you, you said u got ur own angels..i dunno whether u were joking..but doesn't seem like it and as you know, I'm pretty negative when it comes to uncertainty..coz i think you were probably indicating that you do not need my angels..which indirectly mean that you do not need me no more..and when u sms me in the LT saying that you were not looking at me but looking at ellen who so coincidentally sat behind me, I was really sad..becoz I tot you were talking to me..haiz..nvm..
I was at club Zirca just now, there weren't much people..my friends could tell I wasn't feeling happy..I tried to drink to get high or even drunk but I just couldn't..and 1 of my friends actually told me that he might not fully understand how I feel because he is single, but he admire me for what I am doing and my feelings for you..I'm not praising myself here..but I guess even my friends around me could feel how much you meant to me..and another 1 who is married after hearing what happened, told me that it's not worth it to let it go like that..if can should really salvage it..becoz really, I think it was because of our miscomm and misundstding over a period of time that's why when the issues get uncovered, it has such a big impact..so that's y we should try and talk to each other more..
Anw, when I saw zw just now, I really wanted to punch his face..I dunno y..but he kept having the kind of smirk on his face..like a freaking proud guy..maybe I am bias..but it could also be maybe he is really proud that by supporting you all the way, it indirectly caused us to break up and now he stand a higher chance?haha..i dunno man..
anw, i'm really sry for not informing you tt i was going..because I really wanted to give you a pleasant surprise..but it turn out to be one which you ask "how come you are here?"..and seeing that you didn't drink nor eat whole day and that you weren't feeling well really pains me a lot a lot..how not to care about you like that??I don't want you to feel stress or what..so I'm just asking you to let me care for you, don't be so cold to me anymore and dun hurt me with those hurtful words where it implies pushing me away or finding me to be a nuisance and hindrance to your life...I said be4 I'll never ever let you be alone..the world can give up on you, but I won't..
anw, weiseng was very nice and he said the save people sense sth was wrong at the chalet..lolz..but i told him at the chalet we still tgt..LOLz..but now he knows about us liao..yup..20th day since you left me..and i still want you back..
