Day 61. I'm blogging not becoz I am emoing but just felt like it. Standing up after a fall is never easy. Perhaps, this could be my last post. Anyway, I still miss her a lot, and I asked myself if I still love her even though she has feelings for the other guy already, my answer remained unchanged. But knowing this answer doesn't mean I am clinging to her, it just means I did truly fell in love with her and still love her.
My bf Jaslyn asked me a strange question yesterday, she asked "who will you take a bullet for?", in other words, "who are you willing to give up your life for?" Family members aside, I told her the answer is pretty obvious becoz I can totally imagine myself jumping in front of the person to take anything bad for her. And around her, even though I feel comfortable, I am always very aware of the surroundings in a way such that should any harm comes her way (touchwood), I would be able to protect her. But all these 'actions' occur in this place called the brain and is not shown so no one knew except for me. I did not let her know either becoz I was afraid she will feel pressurised when with me, and that's just the way I protect her even though SG is pretty safe. And it does sound a bit extreme/creepy isn't it if I were to say it? And sceptics/critics are probably going to say I'm bullshitting. My conscience is clear regardless.
Anyway, I've been blogging about my relationship issues..after all this while, I've reviewed myself and..
I must say I am the kind of guy who doesn't really say out my plans because I would usually like to have everything in place before announcing. And Jaslyn did say I am not a romantic guy, so with all these, it confirms that I am a boring guy. In fact, I've felt that way since ages ago. A guy who plans ahead and not spontaneous is definitely not going to be as exciting. So yup, this sums up me in a very brief manner. At this moment, I do not feel like revealing more..perhaps, the next time I feel like blogging again, I might reveal more.
