Hm..sent you home juz now..n even tho e frequency of u msging zw was not very frequent like last time, I assumed it's coz u told him that I'm sending you hme so he prob waited till you are going to reach hme be4 asking u if you reached hme..haha..what a change in attitude hur..last time u won't msg ppl when you're with me unless it's really urgent stuff..but now u're replying him when you're wif me..do u noe even as a friend, it shows that the person msging has got someone else better to tok to than the person standing infront of him/her?
Anw, this is sth which I'm very reluctant to say it..but i tink u've placed him in a higher position than me in ur heart alrdy..even if it's unknowingly..coz I can feel it (tho I hope this feel is an inaccurate one)..hm..I seriously don't undstd why you juz can't be firm with him even when he insist on showing up to send you home?I've no qualms about him being a friend, but hey, if you're so repulsive of me when I'm insist, then why can't you do the same for him if you have no feelings for him?Just becoz you don't want to hurt him/lose him as a fren doesn't mean u shld allow him to send you hme and live in his own world..n indirectly hurting me..
In fact, do you know why I was so pissed off during the CNY period?1 of the reasons was becoz you actually went out with him to see the fireworks on the eve!juz coz he went to your house to fetch you doesn't mean you shld go with him!!! haiz..and since that one incident when I was using your comp and he fb chatted you, I wanted to playfully reply and you stopped me, I knew sth wasn't right about him..becoz u were so defensive n juz keep saying he is a very nice guy so u dun wanna hurt him..when you said that, you're alrdy hurting me..becoz it juz shows how much you cared for him..haiz..all these tings I am not sure if you are aware or will even be aware of coz I don't think you visit here anymore..but nvm..I am trying not to think about him..
but seriously, I just hope you could be more firm against him if u do not have anyth for him..chang tong bu ru duan tong..but I know like you said, you might want to accept other guys who are gd to u as well..which is probably referring to him..so as he gets more aggressive and you do not be more firm about it, then it's not gg to be so simple anymore..it's alrdy pretty complicated..lolz..haiz..nvm..
Anw, I saw Sun Yan Zi said this in a MyPaper and it made absolute sense: “爱情是一个承诺，你会觉得你要跟着这个人，希望他好好的，他生病你会担心，他迟到你也会为他操心。幸福，是你找到一个很愿意付出的人，而不是你可以在他身上得到什么。”
